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SW Month Prompt for Esme: Prophecy and Change
Author's Note: This story is written as part of a prompt exchange with EsmeAmelia.  We have a shared headcanon that Snoke was directly manipulating Ben Solo's mind all the way back to his early childhood, so she requested the following: "Write about a time when the young Ben Solo almost tells his parents about Snoke's telepathic communications with him, but he changes his mind at the last minute."
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"Prophecy and Change"

He had failed again, and the lightning that tore through him was his reward.
He had tried--how many times he could not tell--to claw his way to the surface of the vision, that place he knew as the waking world, only to find a distorted facsimile of his room on Hosnian Prime.  Godforsaken hellhole of a city-world where the hate for his family rose every day, but at least it would have been real.
Instead he was back on the tempest-wracked stone island, curled in a fetal position screaming, with an ever-grow
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So?
One of the most relaxing and mentally healthy moments I get are those rare times when I read about the latest digitally-manufactured outrage of the week, and my reaction is, "So?"
ex. In live in a part of the U.S. where city and countryside flip back and forth pretty easily. Whenever I hear about somebody shooting a coyote on their farm, I don't have much of an urge to leap up and protest about cruelty to animals. If it's on your property and biting your chickens, your pets, or your kids, you get to blow that animal away, guilt-free, with no charges being pressed.
Yet, I have the impression that some people online would think I was a heartless Nazi. Yes, if I was shooting at the neighbor's Jewish kids, I would indeed be a bad man. I don't currently own a gun, but I get it that any farmer who lives half-a-mile from me would want to shoot any animal which was snacking in the chicken coop; that farmer has the same reasons that a grocery store manager would call the cops on a shoplifter. W
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Don't Read If Optimistic or Pessimistic
There's a subplot in Mr. Holland's Opus about a talented student who knows that she needs to pursue her dreams in the big city because if she doesn't leave now, she'll be stuck working in her parents' dull business. It's a dilemma for Mr. Holland because if he sides with the parents, he knows he's doing it backwards as a music teacher.
Mr. Holland decides to side with her and set her up with some of his old musician friends. Granted, today he would get fired for this after the parents complained to the superintendent. Anyway...
I used to be proud of that decision of his, but the older I get, the more I realize that yeah, he was pretty stupid and that girl is probably a waitress in a big city now instead of a waitress in her parents' restaurant. Lose-lose. Still, her parents would surely accept her back after she spread her wings, so in the long run there's no unhappy ending either way.
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I mention this because when I was a tea
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Tue May 22, 2018, 9:59 AM


Well, I said back in March that I was planning to re-evaluate where I am, where I'm going, what I'm doing next, around this time.  Originally planned for mid May, but that wasn't a very good time for me, so I postponed it for a week to figure out what direction my life was going in before I made any decisions.  Glad I did, because things are definitely better, but definitely...  not what I need them to be.

Am absolutely heartbroken to have worked as hard as I did to once again manage to be "not good enough."  I wanted so badly to have been ready by now to pursue other life options, but the truth is, I have more work to do in terms of myself and my mental health than I either I originally anticipated, I didn't work hard enough or more things piled up that I want addressed before I go forward with other stuff.  I have a horrendous feeling it's probably that one in the middle...  even if it is, though, it doesn't matter.  How I didn't meet my goal isn't the issue, the issue is that, one more time, I fell just a little short of what I meant to get done.

Despite the failure, I'm not as upset as I thought I'd be.  Maybe because I knew it was coming.  I knew I hadn't managed to get the things done I needed to by the start of this month and knew there was no way I'd make up for the lost time/unfinished business before the time I picked to evaluate my progress and determine what I'm doing from here on out.  I guess I had a suspicion this was going to be how mid-to-late May was going to turn out and I subconsciously accepted that, dealt with being not good enough...  again...   and kept moving.

Which is more or less all I can do right now...  keep moving in the direction I have been and work even harder than I already did...  which would be less daunting if I had slacked off and not thrown everything I had at this only to learn it wasn't enough to topple the tower.  I put everything I had into getting this right, and everything I have isn't enough...  or not enough for right now.  Or ever?  Shit.  Shit shit shitty shit.

Oh, well.  What's the other option?  Quit?  I'm not a quitter.  (....?)  Except I am, I guess, at least when it comes to drugs.  ;)  Then being a quitter is cool.  Joking aside, (gotta laugh, my babies, or I'm going to cry), I'm just going to stay on this course.  It isn't that I've made NO progress, I've made a whole lot...  just not enough.  I absolutely hate having to stare that particular demon of mine in the face, but what else am I going to do?  It's probably more of a matter of timing than some inefficiency or slack-assery on my part.  I can't control time.  Would love to, but can't.

And my scanner is, indeed, dead.  Add that to my To Do List; buy a new scanner, then beat the living Hell out of the old one for defying me.  Something to that effect.

Hope you're all doing well.  Despite the road blocks I've just encountered, I did make a lot of progress I probably shouldn't overlook.  I earned the rights to boast about the things I have managed to get beneath my belt and the notches in my lipstick case, so to speak, I may as well cash in on them.  For as bummed as I feel right now, at least I don't feel like garbage.  I've come a very, very long way, the fact I didn't get there in the frame of time I allotted to get it done isn't indicative I can't do it at all.  I just...  couldn't do it between the beginning of March and the later part of May.  And dudes, that isn't really a whole lot of time to start off with.  Maybe I was unreasonable or overshot my expectations and that's why I'm here now.  Or, rather, not there.  Fuck, where am I?

I need to sit down.

I'm already sitting down...


Shit shit shitty shit.


God love you, I do.
Mandi Pope

  • Listening to: I See You - Flipping The Pig
  • Reading: Origin - Dan Brown
  • Watching: Dog The Bounty Hunter
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RensKnight Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much for reading “Prophecy and Change,” and for the fav. :) I’m so glad you liked it!
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Crowmamma Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Gurrrrrl, I need you to message me! I have all of Gravity Falls but the Wierdmageddon episodes. Help me Mandi Wan Kenobi, you're my only hope! 💛💛💛

Love,
Jer
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KyloRensMom Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I texted you that which you need to know.  Now go weird out, Weirdo!


Love you!
Mandi Wan Kenobi
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dragonboy1092 Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
hello
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pamlaisly232 Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2018  Hobbyist Writer
happy b-dayHave your cake and eat it too 
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LunarFrostQueen45 Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2018  Student General Artist
Happy birthday, Mandi! 🎉🎂🎁🎊🎈
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Happy birthday!
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